I was lusting before I even became a Christian; I can remember being about 6 or 7 years old cutting pictures of beautiful women out of magazines collecting them. I would put all the images under my mattress and just stare at them when I wanted to lust for them, back then lust felt like this ecstasy of power, an as a kid that was better than sugar. I would take the images from under the mattress and fantasize about lustful things about these women. My mom eventually found the pictures and threw them all away, but even then I didn’t realize how lust already had power over me from a youthful age. I already was a prisoner of sin before I even grew up. John 8:34 “Jesus answered them, “Truly, truly, I say to you, everyone who commits sin is a slave to sin.” If you’re reading this and your young then this scripture is for you I wish I would have listened to this scripture when I was young, “2 Timothy 2:22 So flee youthful passions and pursue righteousness, faith, love, and peace, along with those who call on the Lord from a pure heart.” Notice hear it says does who call on the Lord with a pure heart, obviously if you have a pure heart the powerful and the more heard your prayers will be compared to someone who is living in sin or a prisoner to sin.
I heard about God Almighty when I was a kid and like most kids I Had my chance in my youth to give my all to God Almighty but I didn’t. I wanted to explore this thing called being human or should say being in the flesh. When I was about 13 or 14 years old I was lustful as ever. Just looking at an attractive woman for two seconds was enough to get me going. The Holy Bible tells us Matthew 5:28 “But I say to you that everyone who looks at a woman with lustful intent has already committed adultery with her in his heart.” Now as an adult I picture all the times I looked at a woman with lustful intent, I would say it must be in the hundred thousand. Just the simple sin of looking at a woman lustfully is enough for you to be excluded from the Kingdom of God Almighty. I realize that so much now as a 33 year old man who still deals with lust even as a professed Christian, an even as a Christian Rapper who writes songs that are made to uplift souls.
I found my way to Franklin Avenue Baptist Church when I was about 14 or 15 years old. I guess my little exposure to God Almighty as a child I finally realized the importance of him and Jesus Christ as a teenager. Did I ever wanted to be this perfect righteous man like Matthew 5:48 “48 Be ye therefore perfect, even as your Father who is in Heaven is perfect.” I was doing good I was praising God Almighty in the church and was actually making an effort to live a Holy life in my real life. But I’m telling you brothers and sisters when you have a little doubt or weak in any way for lust it can be like a crack addict who finally got off of crack but for some reason goes back and get another hit and keeps hitting it until the gates of Heaven is closed. Then all sudden you wake up because you realize your soul is in jeopardy from being in a good place. That was half of my life.
As I was going to Franklin Ave. Baptist Church I started lusting for the female members who was in the church. They would dress provocative and wear all kinds of sweet perfumes. Church with women started to look like my candy land. I would come to church service on Sunday while the preacher is preaching; I would be lusting for that woman in that red dress sitting in the front row, and not just her but any woman who seems seductive or attractive. Along with drinking alcohol and smoking weed I had stop going to church. For awhile I was going back and forward, back to the world, back to the church, we know it as backsliding, and I was I the biggest backslider.
Eventually I finished high school, joined the Navy, got out with a good discharge and went back to New Orleans to live with my parents. Might I add that even though I was a serious lustful person I still was a virgin, I came briefly close to having sex with a woman in the Navy but it didn’t happen. For me the imagination was a powerful place, in my imagination I could have any women I wanted, in my imagination there wasn’t no fear of disease. My thoughts, heart, and mind was a sick wasteland for lustfulness. The Holy Bibles says, “Proverbs 6:18 An heart that deviseth wicked imaginations, feet that be swift in running to mischief,” That is one of the seven things God Almighty hate. So for most of my life I have been doing one of the things God Almighty hate and that’s having a wicked imaginations. All the sick fantasies I had for women throughout my life shows me I’m truly not worthy of the Kingdom of God Almighty. But all hope isn’t lost.
Today at the age of 33 living in Houston, Texas, known as a Christian Rapper that goes by the name “The Poetic Preacher” I’m still faced with the one thing that’s been a real factor in my life, and that is lust. Now that I’m more grown up I have dealt with lust on a level that almost seem unreal to unknowing eyes. Lustful demons done attacked me in my sleep at home. Spiritually there has been times were I have felt shackled or imprisoned to lustfulness, back to that scripture where Jesus say if you’re in sin you’re a prisoner of sin. Even as I write this story I am still dealing with lust, I have had a heavy pornography addiction the past few years, I have lusted in ways I thought I would never cross those boundaries. I realized after all these years if I want to get free from lust I’m gone have be stronger than ever before. Lust is an addiction, a bad addiction I might add, I might have had a better chance being addicted to cocaine, and then being addicted to lust, cocaine can destroy your body but lust can destroy you spiritually and mess up your connection with God Almighty. I truly don’t want to lose that so I choose to fight every day I wake and if you choose to fight my Christian brothers and sisters know that you’re not alone in this.
The Holy Bible shows us how to overcome lust, we just have to live by it and do it. We have to be in prayer every day, at least pray to God Almighty three times a day, Morning, afternoon, and Evening. Also pray in between those times when temptation rise and try to snatch you up again. Study you’re Holy Bible, now with the internet studying your Holy Bible has become better and more fun, with the internet you can find the exact scriptures you need in your life at that moment. Surround yourself with Christian Music. Get rid of all worldly music except maybe the stuff from the old days like the 70's and 60's. I say that because the music today is made more aggressively with a sinful nature then the music from our parent’s days. Instead of listening to Rap listen to Christian Rap. Instead of listening to Rock music listen to Christian Rock. Listen to Gospel music, there is nothing like a powerful choir singing. Sometimes having a good Gospel CD playing on your computer or CD player is good when you are sleeping at night, might bring some positivity to your life on a spiritual level, the Spirit of God once came upon me when I was doing this same thing. Fellowship, go to church every Sunday get that word in, it’s always good to hear another person speak the Holy word because they might speak it in a way you didn’t understand or they might interpret it in a way that is spiritually powerful to your soul. Go to some of the meetings and programs they have throughout the church it will be good to be around like minded people. Lastly I would say live that Christian Life everyday you wake up. Below is some scripture that should help you deal with lust in your daily life. Memorize these scriptures and put them in your heart.
Matthew 5:28 But I say to you that everyone who looks at a woman with lustful intent has already committed adultery with her in his heart.
Galatians 5:16 But I say, walk by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the flesh.
1 Corinthians 6:18 Flee from sexual immorality. Every other sin a person commits is outside the body, but the sexually immoral person sins against his own body.
1 Thessalonians 4:3-5 this is the will of God, your sanctification: that you abstain from sexual immorality; that each one of you know how to control his own body in holiness and honor, not in the passion of lust like the Gentiles who do not know God;
Colossians 3:5 Put to death therefore what is earthly in you: sexual immorality, impurity, passion, evil desire, and covetousness, which is idolatry.
1 John 2:16 For all that is in the world—the desires of the flesh and the desires of the eyes and pride in possessions—is not from the Father but is from the world.
2 Timothy 2:22 So flee youthful passions and pursue righteousness, faith, love, and peace, along with those who call on the Lord from a pure heart.
Galatians 5:19-21 Now the works of the flesh are evident: sexual immorality, impurity, sensuality, idolatry, sorcery, enmity, strife, jealousy, fits of anger, rivalries, dissensions, divisions, envy, drunkenness, orgies, and things like these. I warn you, as I warned you before, that those who do such things will not inherit the kingdom of God.
1 Corinthians 6:13 ESV / 249 helpful votes “Food is meant for the stomach and the stomach for food”—and God will destroy both one and the other. The body is not meant for sexual immorality, but for the Lord, and the Lord for the body.
Romans 8:6 For to set the mind on the flesh is death, but to set the mind on the Spirit is life and peace.
John 14:15 “If you love me, you will keep my commandments.
Galatians 6:8 For the one who sows to his own flesh will from the flesh reap corruption, but the one who sows to the Spirit will from the Spirit reap eternal life.
Job 31:1 “I have made a covenant with my eyes; how then could I gaze at a virgin?
1 Peter 2:11 Beloved, I urge you as sojourners and exiles to abstain from the passions of the flesh, which wage war against your soul.
James 1:14-15 But each person is tempted when he is lured and enticed by his own desire. Then desire when it has conceived gives birth to sin, and sin when it is fully grown brings forth death.
Psalm 119:37 Turn my eyes from looking at worthless things; and give me life in your ways.
1 Corinthians 6:9-10 Or do you not know that the unrighteous will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived: neither the sexually immoral, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor men who practice homosexuality, nor thieves, nor the greedy, nor drunkards, nor revilers, nor swindlers will inherit the kingdom of God.
Romans 13:14 But put on the Lord Jesus Christ, and make no provision for the flesh, to gratify its desires.
Mark 7:20-23 And he said, “What comes out of a person is what defiles him. For from within, out of the heart of man, come evil thoughts, sexual immorality, theft, murder, adultery, coveting, wickedness, deceit, sensuality, envy, slander, pride, foolishness. All these evil things come from within, and they defile a person.”
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